I've missed you my dear
my love
your razor fingers trailing
down me
my love
my dear
I've missed you
my blackbird
your piercing eyes
on me
my dear
my demon
Oh how i've missed you
judge me lover
polishing your black halo
my darling
smelling my skin like an animal
in heat
do you hunger my love
I hunger for you
for your hated
hand on my throat
my hunter
bring me down with steely arrows
in my back
my heart
fill my lungs with blood
descend on me
smiling
my love
my demon
never let me be and i will
always be yours
my hunter
lover
darling
love me my demon
as I have loved you
bring me down
blackbird
bring me down

I used to feel
like I was a rock
strong unbending
in the relentless wind
I thought was life
I THOUGHT was life
until the day
I met the waves
standing proud as ever
in the surf
watching the water creep in
towards me with the tide
lovely blue ocean
deep and unflinching
it came at me sweetly
at first
but as the water rose
and my feet dispeared within
I saw what life really was
And ever since i've beared it
the waves, the wind
chipping into me,
stealing little pieces of me
and I wait for the day,
that I will tumble into the sea
as others have done
long before me, surrendering
to its power, its love,
its hatred,
it's power, it's love,
it's hatred
I used to feel like a rock
strong for those around me,
those who clung to me
and though I still stand
against the tide, I feel my feet
slowly slipping away with the sand,
I'd never tell them, those who hold
onto me, those who rely on me
the day I disappear will be quiet,
normal, and they will leave
as people do,
to find a new rock to cling to
to love
to hope with
but we all fall in the end
we all disappear into the tide
what defines us, is if we are missed
when we are gone

Sticky and thick
the smell hung in the air
with a vengeance that suggested
it would never smell like
anything else
I smiled
stroking his arm
feeling him breath against me
moonlight kissing him
where my lips had been
slipping over his skin like silk
the cold New York air
slid through the window
causing my flesh to tighten
clinging to him for warmth
he obliged
his arms pulling me closer
surrendering to my sleepy prodding
stifling a satisfied laugh
I closed my eyes
taking it all in
if only we could have stayed like that
his fingers in my hair
my hands on his chest
breathing that beautiful New York air
and let the rest of the world just
disappear
while the moonlight bathed us in light
soft and fresh
where nothing could harm us
but at least we could have that moment
i whispered into his ear
I love you
and let sleep take me as it had
taken him
to a peace we could share
until the velvet night
would seduce us again
to bring that sticky thick smell
back to his room
I smiled as sleep began to
overcome me
goodnight lover
until tomorrow
goodnight

It coarsed all around them
wrapping them in its beautiful glow
a silky warmth
They smiled at each other the knowing smile
of weathered lovers
a life force
a glimmering hope
they called it love
and they commanded it in ways only
other could dream about
eyes playing on each others skin
watching the light dance, the invisible glitter
coating a film to their bodies
They held each other as the wind picked up
covering them, hiding them from the world
to simply let them be
maybe one day the others would
see what they'd done
but for now
they were happy to know the love
between them was strong,
pure and everlasting
and as the wind died down
they lay in arms warm and comforting
breathing in the calming air of anothers love
of each others love
and the film protected them for now
as they reached towards forever brushing it
with fingertips
smiling the smile of weathered lovers
friends
falling asleep together
forever and ever they would bear this wind
for love

They lay beneath the trees
hand held tight entwined
in blades of grass
but they found no happiness here
legs crossed and eyes staring
at the branches bobbing and tossing
like angry dragon's heads
intent on blood
an absense of words led
to the bitter silence of rustling leaves
and the hum of dragon flies over water

They clung to eachother
fingers grasping skin
and memories
trying to keep this love
from dying between them
in the fading summer grass
but silence made it impossible
each moment slipped away
like words unspoken in the wind
watching each other
from the corners of their unsure eyes

The sun began to set
breathing a sigh of silent releaf they rose
sitting now in the dusty pink glow
of the summer dusk
eyes still staring at nothing
there was nothing to say
they were letting it die a slow
silent death and now
with the last warmth of the summer day
they exchanged a wordless goodbye
and kissed eachother to Autumn

Tans and freckles fading as
they abandoned that hillside
where their summer love would
lie in dying grass all winter long
to watch the moon wax and wane
and take their lives in it's stride
for nothing is like a first love
and the trees, the water, the sun itself
stood still to catch the last of its warmth
before it too faded away with the dusk

It was cold, harsh, steel
pushing against every nerve
every sour taste bud
causing tears to swell
crashing to the ground with
an intensity I obviously lacked
oh sweet release I begged
bruise my face with that
angry blood spitting back
into the gaping chamber
where my death
now resided
lead
steel
trigger
pulse
and then it would be over
I would find out who
God really is
maybe unless the
catholics are right
fires of hell swallow me whole
filling me veins with
the dark of hatred and malice
more release than this poisoned world
one
two
three
and then
silence

It was a disdainfully cold morning
as steam swept across their platform
the stage for their scene of parting
a soldier leaving his sweetheart
"wait for me" he whispers
always is said without words
as though a language could disguise
itself through the softest lover's kisses
in the salty trail of tears sliping
down to that shirt he adores
she clings to him
that uniform making him look all
the man she knows he is
A last wave parts them for now
with the promise or always
written in the steam still clinging to her jeans
always

He opened his eyes to a nothingness
where had this come from a numbness
seeped through him from heart to fingers
and toes
making those blows more present
in this empty space
had he imagined that embrace
that she had loved him
that they had been them
her words tearing him open
her face unsoftened in the moonlight
spitting a goodbye in his face
crude like the place
he now found himself seeing
a being touching her
moving in perfect form
to steal her away with poison
promises
flawless in his quest
of selfishness
in her stupidity
she followed with no pity
for those left in her
destructrive wake
allowing him to make his move
while the other watched heplessly
as she was perfectly entranced
with those lies
bringing him the worst tasting
surprise of goodbyes
he wished her dead
lying in a bed a million miles away
one she was afraid
to let him sleep in
so she set him "free"
as she had been to told
to be somewhere new
that flew over white capped peaks
and her heart was lost in its return
to burn in hell
so she accepted this fate
and let that great love
slip away
with a poison promise clinging to
her selfish lips bringing her the pain
she knew she well deserved

There was a window
small spindly glass
serparated me
from you
the love that was meant
to last
we said so
one day of silence
you told me
i love you
patience had prevailed
love had been found
the spindly glass
of 3000 miles
means nothing now
for my heart is yours
no matter how far
apart we become in distance
in dreams
in hopes
in love
we are forever together
and so forever strong

A little wave
soft and new
made it's brave treck
towards the shore the sky
blue reflecting on its surface
dancing in the sunshine
entrancing all who gazed
upon this tiny ripple
growing steadily
into a supple wave full
of charisma and sunlit laughter
sliding its way gently inland
awaiting the day it would
crash upon the sand

Almost a love story
of the simplest kind
history repeating itself in
perfect harmony
with the rise and fall of the
horizon glimmering sweetly
on waters edge
showing the ledge where lovers
dip their toes to paradise
smiling all the way

And our little wave
brave and true
slipped quietly onto
the sand one starlit night
laughter bubbling foam
leaving trails on the shore
where lover's footprints danced
their way down to a paradise
only they can know
a glittering dream
of perfection
only they can touch
and a picture of forever
only we can hold to our hearts
floating in the waves
on their way to sunlit shores
laughing our way to eternity

There were drums all around her
pulsing and convulsing to one sweet beast
she moved
taking in every shiver of fire light
every tremor of earth
closing her eyes
mindlessness consuming
engulfing her small body
teaching her learning from her
this beating
these drums
pulled her away from what was normal
danced her to beautiful oblivion
a sick drug
bruises rose through her skin
with ever pulse
but she didn't care
she danced on and on
till the drums
and her heart both
finally stopped beating
and she lay happy to have felt
happy to have moved in rhythm with that sweet beast
the one that called itself
Amare

(it'll make more sense if you look up what amare means) :-]

He was just standing there
completely unaware I was watching
him
standing there playing with my hair
thinking how weird it would be if
he
caught my stare
I looked to the ground for the something
I'd thought i'd found and smiled
he
wasnt one for sweet hello's
my head on his pillows
arms tight in mellow sleep
he
opened his eyes and smiled
at me
he had ment content and now
I felt it too

Sea salt dragged
through the shimmering air
I held my breath
and twirled my hair
Smoke rising from my lips
smiling in your direction
moving toes in the sand
yours was pure perfection
I looked down
nerves like jello
you looked back
your lips said hello

1) Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.).
2) Put it on shuffle.
3) Press play.
4) For every question, type the song that's playing.
5) When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6) Don't lie.
7) Tag five friends.



Opening Credits: The Grand Delusion by: Bad Religion...interesting haha

Waking Up: Bleed It Out by: Linkin Park......hahahahaha ok then

First Day of School: The Pretender by:Foo Fighters....I like it wow very appropriate

Falling In Love:  Oxygen by: Colbie Callait....wow i cant even wow


Fight Song: Citizen/Soldier by:3 Doors Down...cool i like it

Break-Up Song: Tearing Us Apart by: Plain White T's......Oddly appropriate from my end which is sad

Prom: Forget what I said by: The Killers.....hahahahaha

Mental Breakdown: One Of Those Days by: Joshua Radin......again wow

Flashback: Crawling by: Linkin Park.....hahahaha very appropriate "There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming confusing..."

Wedding: Make Your Move by:New Found Glory....I like it haha

Birth of a Child: Love Me Dead by:Ludo.....hahahahahahaha im never having kids lol

Final Battle: StraightJacket Feeling by:All American Rejects......sad day

Death Scene: Cemetery Drive by:MCR.......wow ok then

Great Death: Say It Aint So by:Weezer.....interesting

Funeral Song: I Will Follow You Into The Dark by: Death Cab for Cutie......awwww

Ending Credits: 7 Minutes in Heaven by:Fall Out Boy......hahahahahahahahha alrite then :)

Once upon a time
there was
a happily ever after
and once upon a time
we had nothing
but laughter
and well once upon a time
i saw forever
hidden in the moonlight
behind your eyes
and wolves screamed to mother moon
touch the earth
and he would swoon
for me
for only me
just to be
perfectly together
and i bared a toothy grin
sunk my teeth into skin
smooth and beautiful
drawing out his life
his soul
showing him the happiness
of a person
who wasn't whole
and once upon a time
i thought i saw forever
i heard his laughter
felt happily ever after
my poison grin
sunk into flesh
and there was love within
and the moon left the earth
my world
and left wolves to cry
unheard of things in my direction
putting a caption to my
venom heart
I live to die

How sweet it must be
just to look on
while someone elses world falls to the floor
pieces of their sad faces blowing away in the wind
irises gleaming like broken glass
i wonder what mine looked like
was it a glorious explosion
like planes
hitting the twins in a terrible New York sky
or more like sand
in an hour glass slowly bleeding away
who was watching
who was listening
I tasted the bitter nectar of defeat while he sat
probably at a computer screen
white noise the only thing I could hear
echoed through my head with a knowledge I had
always possesed
but never acknowledged existed
and it was the last time
I would let it happen
so I put a bandaide on my bleeding goodbye
and stood sadly waiving looking out
at a lonely horizon tasting smoke
coughing up anger
sadness
defeat
letting myself fly away
singing goodbye love
and vowing to stay as high as I could be
as you are me and we are all together
a wise man said
as you are me and we are all together

I'm always gonna love him
I woke to this thought
Always
no matter what
If death decides to take me
tomorrow
I would be content to know
that I found love
this kind of love
deep
beautiful
everlasting
I would go with a smile on my face
a laugh in my heart
his touch on my skin
lingering still
I'm always gonna love him
I sleep to this thought
Always
no matter what